ahhh yes.

"boys don't fall for me. i'm not cute or purtty or any of that junk.boys dont look the way i'd like. the ones i know dont. they dont act right. they dont smell right. they dont dress right. they dont care right. i'm tired of all these 'boys' and i want someone new. someone who says hi and hears what i have to say. someone who thinks i'm pretty not hot. someone who will watch movies with me and will let me play video games with them. someone who will give me hugs not just high fives. someone who will go shopping with me and not tag along. someone who will be there to just talk. i want a boy to talk to. someone who thinks my height is cute. someone who will let me hug them, and not think its awkward.to bad i dont know any who fit any of those catagories. to bad no one i know even comes close to one of these."

funny, when i re-read this.
because you fit every single qualification which i listed. every single god damn catagory qualification description WHATEVER.
you just fit. i don't want to let that go and i know you don't either.

2 months ago, i never ever ever EVER thought there could be someone like you. i didn't think so at all.
but you are a whole different qualification of 'boy' and i don't really know what to do about it. the fit
is to close and it is as if every minute i am having a different thought about you. urh.
when i read that just now, i felt so weird. because honestly everything i listed is you. and it's scary
because i wrote that in the begining of the year, before i even knew you were around.
i don't even know. alksdjfskadjf

i just want to know how you are feeling right now.
thats all i really want. i want to know if you feel the same as i am right now, if you are thinking about me like i am thinking about you, if you feel upset like i do.
i just want to talk to you. so bad. i don't want to be denied. i don't think i will be, but no matter what i can't
help but feeling that way.
i just want answers because right now in my head there are a million questions a minute. i'm not even kidding.

"you don't want me as a boyfriend, i have to many complications."
"i don't know about that."