this will sound awful.
but on a different note i really wish i had some way to make my appearence better while here.
it was really careless of me to just not bring my hair straightener, or any good makeup.
everyday i am walking down the streets with my face and hair looking like total and
complete shit. its so embarrassing and i can feel everyone looking at me or something.
i look horrid. all the time. and then it makes it worse because i am surrounded
by all of these extremely fashionable and naturally attractive people who wear
little make up and i'm sure do nothing to their hair but brush it, if that.
stuff like that really makes me mad. that someone can have such natural beauty,
a face that is pretty and smooth and beautiful with such little effort. no make up at all.
and then there is stupid me who is just so extremely plain looking. and its just weird.
being here and being surrounded by that is weird and gives me such a strange feeling.
its a feeling i dont like, it makes me feel very alone and secluded and makes me miss all
things familiar. i know so many people who have a gorgeous face, who can take candid
photos and have them look absolutely flawless. i wish i could be like that sometimes.
homecoming just came on. how ironic.
just some random indie music channel on tv and homecoming comes on.
wow.
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