i don't get it.

i'm feeling so empty right now.
i have this feeling in my stomach; it makes me feel so
upset and anxious. i feel nervous and alone and like
i need something. i get this feeling because i know deep down
that there is probably no potential for anything else. i can see
how it might be.

that kid really helps me out alot. he makes me feel happy and makes
me think about things i wouldn't of before, like there is something to
look forward to. he makes me feel like there is a future for me and that
other kid. he thinks there is potential but i don't think there is
i honestly never know how it is until i see him

i just don't get why he won't talk to me.
theres another girl. i know there has to be. someone hotter than me
er something. i bet there is, i need to stop making exuses for his actions
towards myself. i see what i was and i need to move on.
but what hurts the most is that there is nothing to move on to. there will never
be anything that is like him again. guys don't think about me like that
and i should've known better with him.



i just wish something would happen where he would prove me wrong.
fuck this. i'm never going to have a boyfriend. or a romance ever again.
good things that happen to me go by so quickly and rarely ever come
i hate feeling this empty. i don't know how to stop this.
i forget how it feels to be wanted. i'm glad i at least got to feel it this summer
it hurts so badly to know it will never most likely never happen again.