i get it.

i realize what this might be.
however i do not want to fully admit it yet because
i don't know if it's true. maybe you don't want anything else,
but i don't believe that because of things you did and said after.


i want that day back. you holding me was a feeling i would
like to be far more frequent, but it makes me feel weird to think
that might not be.
i know you felt the same, or else you would not have been doing that.
you looked so cute.



i just hope it won't be left in the dark or anything, and i hope
you won't be in new mexico for a long time. at least say something
or give me a reason to be okay. SOMETHING