ow.

its over.
like really really over. like as in finished and completely done.


as in he said something so i don't even know why i was trying.
here comes the stage where i feel like an idiot for running after this
person for nothing but to be treated how i was treated.
i must have done something wrong to alter these feelings he one had
because this is definitely not how it used to be. but now its gone and
nothing will happen again. so i shouldn't even talk about it like something
will, because it won't. i know it and he made it clear.
i feel kind of weird right now and i really don't know how i am going to be
doing in a few days.
i assume this is only the begining.



how cold hearted can one person be. i really hope i don't
deserve to be treated this way. this is like a stab in the heart
with a dull knife or something. ouchies my hawrt.