near/far

all i could ever want is

to sleep near you. whenever that happens

i feel infinite happiness, and then i think for a moment

about how in a day i will want that moment back forever.

how do i learn how to love things in the moment?

do you know how?

because i haven't learned that yet, infact, it's gotten a lot worse over 

the past few months. 

but in those times, you looking at me like that.

you lying on me like that. lying on you. 

belt buckles and arm crossing and leaning

and your eyelashes, the kind ynez goes crazy over.

now i know what she means. 

that one look you give me.

all i want is to have you next to me, no ones around so you

don't get conscious about me. that look you give me when you are,

just come over, sit next to me on this pillow. 

what if you were.

"i'd let you sleep on me if there was no room for me"

awuh awuh awuh 

all this makes me want to blush.